oh man, today was the last day of my high school career.  it felt like any other day, just heavier than usual.  haha, i made chizom cry, well not intentionally, it's just the feeling you get when you know you can't see me for years at a time.  hey what can i say, i'm amazing XD  i decided to stay a bit longer to hang out with my friends for the last time.  when i went home, i watched the slideshows made by connie and shalla, boy those made me cry.  i didn't realize that i was going to miss the underclassmen and my friends so much.  luckily i'll see them tomorrow for our finals.  and there are some people that i can never get rid of since i'm going to be living with them for the next 4 years XD also some are going to come visit me in college station when i'm bored.  but i still can't imagine not waking up at 6 in the morning and not getting ready for school anymore.  or never having it easy again.  my life is changing and it just hit me now.  it's scary and exciting at the same time.  i can't wait.

hopefully this summer i can get a job to support my family.  my mom's kidneys are failing.  only 10% of each one are functioning.  it's been a hard time for everyone.  it doesn't help with me graduating and with the summer coming. changes always come with the seasons.  summer just happens to be a bigger change then the rest.  so this will put stress on her.  but i'm trying my best to help her relax.  it's kind of hard trying to make time for myself sometimes.  but i'll endure, it's what i have to do now.